For the best

In possible danger

All based on a true lie called love

After love so intense

I am scared of being alone.

All though I like the four walls of my

Room

All I wanna do is run...

But my feet are heavy

I don't really know what to say

Rather there is so much I want to tell you but I fear you might judge me

Or hate me.

heartache is a medical condition

Symptoms are heavy breathing... Dizziness... Fast heart beat. 

Blurry eyes.. And non stop tears

Streaming down your face.

The pain becomes bearable, once the breathing becomes slower. 

But it all starts... Again

Repeats it's self.

And you are in pain.

I wanna tell you so much.

But I don't know where to start.

I don't even know who you are.

I wanna scream to the universe..

And in dire need of a motherly hug. 

At the same time I need your love.

And forgiveness 

I need you to cleans me of this sin.

I need you now, more than ever.

I heard that his blood is purer than crystals. I asked myself how? How is it possible for blood to be pure?

It stains?  How is it that something that is pure can leave traces.

But his blood is not like ours...

He is holy. And his blood is love.

That is the answer I got.

I keep typing the word love.

And it's not voluntary 

It comes naturally

His love is natural, and anything that is natural is honest.

He is here with me.

I choose to believe that.

And I will hold on to him.

No matter what people do to me.

I will hold firm